My Secret Vacation For One

I used to have free time..before kids... that was just for sitting around watching TV or reading magazines. I loved this time and cherished it. I didn't know it was ever going to come to such an abrupt end or I would have wallowed in it. Now after having kids even my free time is scheduled and quite often neglected.

This week I decided to take a break and take the girl's nap time off. Instead of working out, paying bills, planning or cleaning during this time, I decided that I would nap, rest, watch TV while eating like a pig, or just lay in the tub and read my magazines. So far I've put on roughly 6 pounds so I think I am doing this vacation time correctly.

However, in my idle time I have to come to realize I do miss working out. I don't enjoy feeling bloated and fat. And to top it off I just feel plain lazy. I didn't realize how accustomed I had become to cramming in all those little tedious activities while the girls slept. I guess the grass is always greener somewhere else.

In all of my idle time, I've had a lot and I mean a lot of thinking time, the one thing that rings out pretty clearly to me is that if I couldn't go upstairs and check on my girls while they slept and know that they are safe then my life would be empty. They make every day perfect. Who needs all day every day to lay around and do nothing anyway? How boring. I can say that. I've seen both sides of the fence.